Title:Say Goodnight (1/1) i hope..
Author:Ember Graze
Pairing:J/SB , J/a nameless one night stand
Archive:I like archives!
Disclaimer:I like to preten that i own Jason Mewes but
most people just think i'm stoned.
Note: Ok, i said that i would probably lurk for awhile
but then i heard this great Jump, Little Children song
and the songfic just sorta happened. Does anyone else
here remember Jump, Little Children? It's like they
disappeared or something. Anyway, on to the angst...


(I heard you late last night/ You know you talk too
much/ Not everything comes through these walls/ But
just enough/ To hear the things that I don't want to
hear)

The sounds were fimiliar to Bob. At first the door
opened and closed and then the giggling started. It
was after two in the morning and Bob had been laying
in bed for 3 hours hoping that Jay would break his
late night ritual of finding a good one night stand.
Bob could hardly take it anymore. Every night he would
be forced to listen to Jay's melodic moans of pleasure
and then he would awake the next morning to find Jay
on the couch, the women gone, the empty look in Jay's
eyes. Now Bob understood the need for a good lay but
wether Jay would admit it or not it was obvious that
this string of meaningless relationships was begining
to wear him down. Jay like to pretend that he didn't
want to be loved or cared for but Bob knew better, and
it was for that reason that it tore him up to hear Jay
with his new catch. Nope, no routine changes tonight.

(I heard you late last night/ I wish I had my
distance/ I hear you crash around and say/ That no one
listens)

It was almost an hour later and Bob had actually
fallen asleep when he was almost startled awake by the
loud banging of the headboard of Jay's bed. Things
seemed to be going as normal and Bob, who was starting
to get hard just imagining the scene in the other
room, was begining to contemplate pulling himself over
the edge when suddenly the noise next door haulted.
That was when Bob heard it, the sobbing, Jay's
sobbing.

(I wish that I would hear you say goodnight)

He heard a women's furstrated sigh and the door to
both Jay's room and the housse itself both open and
then slam shut again. And Bob fought the urge to go to
Jay. Jay being vunerable was horrible because it put
him in a desperate mode of insults. Besides he
reasoned, he'd been throwing out hints for years and
the boy was obviously not interested. It was better to
learn not to care for him rather than have his love
unreturned. Afterall, he didn't care. He didn't care
who Jay was with or how lonely Jay felt. He didn't
care at all. Yeah nice allusion to live under Bob. You
know that nothing will make you able to ignore those
sobs. And with that he head catiously to Jay's room.

(Nobody cares/ Especially me/ But I can't help myself/
As I fall asleep/ To turn out the lights/ Turn back
the sheets/ Say goodnight and turn me on/ Turn out the
lights/ Turn back the sheets/ Turn me on)

Bob slowly opened the door to Jay's room and there
lay the most heart wrenching site he had ever seen.
Jay lay, still naked and at half mast Bob couldn't
help but notice, curled in a fetal position and
sobbing. Bob stared for a few moments before he
mustered up the courage to approach Jay, gently
resting a hand on his shoulder. Jay jumped up to face
Bob and the tirade began.
"What the fuck are you doing in here?!? I know yous
want my man meat pretty bad but that don't give ya no
right to invade my privacy and come running all up in
my room while i was...i was.."
And the sobbing began again. Jay fell limply into
Bob's arms and snuggled into his chest putting up no
fight now.
"Ya know I could get any piece of ass I want but Is
couldn't get anyone to care for me even if i tried.
And I DO try Bob but still noone cares. And it hurts
no matter what they say. It hurts."
Bob grabbed Jay's chin and angled his face toward
him. Then he stared. And Jay stared back. Utter
silence. For the first time since they met neither of
them spoke a word and that's when Jay finally saw it.
The look in Bob's eyes which clearly read 'I care
about you, you stupid bitch'. And then Bob kissed him.
Gentle, loving, and yet incredibly erotic.
Intoxicating in every way Jay decided. 

(I heard you late last night/ You were in such a
hurry/ Not a sound behind these walls/ Makes me worry/
I wish that I could hear you say goodnight.)

They broke apart and panted for a moment.
"I want more." Jay said.
"Jay," Bob began softly, "I want more too. I have
for longer than you probably realize. But not now. Not
tonight, when we could just spend the night together
in one bed. Leave sorting through all our feelings
'till the morning and just be perfect for the moment."
And they laid together. Cuddling and and each one
planning for the future in his own head. And that was
when Jay said it.
"Goodnight Silent Bob."
And Bob's mind was eased.
"Goodnight Jay."

(Say goodnight.../ Say goodnight...)